(Looooooooooong time back I read this in one of the novels..... loved it.... haven't come across anything which has been so beautifully expressed...... thot of sharing it........ )
You become accustomed to being less of a person that you were. When someone betrays you, they kill a part of you, the part that knows too much , that feels the betrayal. Or perhaps you kill off that part coz it knows too much. The worse the betrayal, the larger the parts of you that knows it, that must die.
At first pain of betrayal, profound as it may be, you overcome it automatically. And you're grateful; you think it wasn't so bad after all.
But sooner or later you understand the price you paid to overcome it. You understand that part of you has died, that you are no longer a full human being. The most difficult thing to live with is, not being a whole person.
Its like learning to live with being a CRIPPLED..........
